Dead-End Drive In – DivX Version (Normal Quality), iPod/iPhone Version
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IMDB rating: 5.20 Plot: In the near future, drive-in theatres are turned into concentration camps for the undesirable and unemployed. The prisoners don’t really care to escape because they are fed and they have a place to live which is, in most cases, probably better than the outside. Crabs and his girlfriend Carmen are put into the camp and all Crabs wants to do is escape. |
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Actors: Manning Ned,Whitford Peter,Wilde Wilbur,Gibson Dave,Hall Ollie,Fahey Murray,Shadlow Jeremy,Climo Brett,Action,Drama,Horror,Sci-Fi,Thriller,
what do i do? Pretty much at my lowest.?
i feel i am at a crossroads. i am 22, but i honestly feel like there is nowhere to go, and every road leads to the same destination. I am currently going through what is going to culminate with a break up this weekend. I have been with the girl for over 2 years, and I really am truly in love with her.
I have found that throughout the two years i have successfully managed to destroy the relationship, and sabotage what love she had for me, and no matter how much i hated and even saw myself doing it, I continued.
I am an insecure person. And I have ended up taking it out on her to the point where she says she has no confidence in herself. She said to me earlier tonight that ‘i haven’t done anything in a year to make her happy’.
Whats hardest about this break up is knowing it is entirely my fault and being told that I am entirely to blame. I have turned the best thing in my life into what it currently is.
I have lost touch with all friends from school. i attended university, graduated, and haven’t been able to find a job, so now work in a call centre. I currently have one real friend and then associated acquaintances, and im at a point where I feel i truly have nothing.
I have managed to turn what positives existed in my life against me, and Im pondering what next.
My girlfriend and I had a rough patch in march/april/may, and then we had what I though was a happy Summer, as we went traveling around Europe together. To my surprise she didn’t see it the same way as I did. She says she hasn’t been happy in a long time.
We haven’t had a physical relationship in a long time. The last time we had sex was over six months ago. I asked her if she could remember the last time she said anything positive about me, and she couldn’t reply.
Ive been trying so hard the last month or so to make amends, or even make an impact on the problems we have, but to no avail. I haven’t had a good nights sleep for over two weeks. i stayed up last night and found the words from a song to show her how i felt.
She didn’t reply to them, and then when I prompted her to, she said it didn’t mean anything, as it wasn’t my song, and she didn’t believe that i felt that way.
I have tried everything in my power to put this relationship right, but it seems to have made it worse. She currently lives on the other side of the country, so two weeks ago i drove across so we could have a proper conversation, and after 30 minutes she told me to go home. Ive tried to show an interest in her life but was told to stop being fake. Ive written down my feelings and been totally honest and sincere with her, resulting in being told I am pathetic.
She goes out almost every night of the week, and just says she cant be bothered dealing with me or us. Her friends obviously dislike me as I make her unhappy.
I genuinely didn’t think I do anything right. Everything I do to make us and her happy backfires. I tell her I love her and she doesn’t want to hear it, yet she claims and insists she loves me.
she says i have to give her space, but I live a couple hundred miles away, and we speak once a day. She says all she wants to do is go out and have fun with her friends, and she doesnt want to deal with me or us. Why doesnt she care?
I have got to the point where I am understanding that there is no way she wants this relationship. I work a dead end job, I have no life prospects, I have pretty much no social life. I have an unstable relationship with my parents. Me and my brothers don’t talk.
The common factor in all these issues is myself. I find I am incapable of creating a functional relationship with anyone, and end up driving everyone away. Im alone and dont see any other option.
I dont want to be alone. I have lost everything, and I am so desperate. I know this is not grounds for a functional relationship, but i truly do love her, and cant bare the thought of losing her.
This isnt written for a responce, i guess, im sharing my feelings as I have nobody to talk to. I have nowhere else to turn, how pathetic is that?
I am truly sorry this is happening to you. As I have heard many times if you love someone you can let them go. Maybe you should just try to focus on getting your life before making someone else apart of it. I understand what it feels to have little friends, so if you want a listening ear (or reading eye since this is via website) I am on alot. Im not religious but I can truly say I believe in one thing, that is everything happens for a reason. Good luck to you.
Meg | Oct 15, 2009
Let her go, focus on making your life work before you can take on making two lives work together. It feels like crap at first, but when you finally realize you’re ok on your own, someone will be attracted to you and your confident/happy life and practially fall into your lap. I found that when you look to hard to be with someone, there’s no one who wants to be with you. But when you say " I’m just going to live my life and have fun" people gravitate towards you and won’t leave you alone.
And I’m older now..and have been through lots
tessamess67 | Oct 15, 2009
Blaming and heaping a mountain of negative self-criticism upon yourself will avail you nothing, my friend. There are many alternatives to hating on yourself, although you may not see it that way. What were your thoughts like five years ago? Are they the same today? No. Will they be the same five years from now? No. Perception is fluid and changing, but we do experience seasons of thought, so to speak. It is not lasting. What makes you think it’s all your fault, anyway? Not that admitting responsibility is a negative trait, necessarily, but it seems unfair to ladle all that guilt on yourself. I mean, what kind of immature, spiteful wench turns a guy she’s known for years away after he drove cross-country just to talk to her? She sounds non-responsive to your terms of endearment, and it’s most likely shattering your self-esteem to continue seeking rebuke from a woman that clearly is no good for you. Why do that, when you can do stuff that’s GOOD for you? Like punt her through a field goal, score two for your team, and put a bandaid on it. Go exercise, eat better, and go do some open-mic somewhere. Find a hobby you can obsess on for awhile. Despite what your brain thinks, it’s wrong… wasting your affections on a woman who doesn’t want them is the ultimate exercise in masochism, and it hurts you. Love yourself first, my friend. Nobody needs fair-weather friends. They’re only there when you’re doing good. Remember to lock the door on the bastards when your life turns around, and it will. And stop hating on yourself, she might just be a vampire.
Big | Oct 15, 2009
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